So.. This real world thing sucks. I am completely unimpressed with just about every event since graduation with the exception of sleeping until noon, visiting NY and RI, and ice cream for Eric and my three year anniversary today. Otherwise, I greatly dislike getting up in the morning, dislike having slim to nothing to do at work, dislike telling other people how to do their jobs when we were in the same meeting listening to them describe it, and I dislike the hassle of getting a car loan.

In optimistic news: I'm a fan of craigslist. I have a new bunny (who was free and saved from a two year old who liked to poke his eyes and a four year old who liked to pull his ears). His name is Chili Peppers although I have shortened it to "chili" and my mom thinks he should be "piper" because we chase him around the house when it is time to get back in his cage.

I'm also in the process of closing on a brand new (to me) car - a 2007 Civic LX *gray.* I'm psyched. I would like it now but i am being thrown through loops and hoops between the bank which is open 9-5 (i work 8:30-4:45) in DOVER, my email in HOOKSETT and the seller in DERRY. Blech. Tomorrow I have to deliver the will information (the owner actually died - his daughter is selling it at a bargain for the estate) and maybe by tomorrow I will have a check? Yes that would be great if only the seller wasn't going out tomorrow night and I won't be able to get it to her by Friday.. so I won't get the title to the bank until Monday.. and I won't get the title back from the bank until TUESDAY.. so I can go to the DMV on my way to the dentist on WEDNESDAY.. and THEN... Wednesday night at the earliest pick up the keys with my temporary plates. Ugh. I'm tired of my crapping 94 civic already (although it is not crappy if you would like to purchase it - $1800 and it comes with a whole set of very expensive snow tires, a new exhaust, a new starter, new battery, etc.

I have also found THREE apartments in the area of my job/erics job (they are an hour and a half plus apart - its difficult to find something around Epping too). So hopefully tomorrow I will find an inexpensive apartment where I will be able to bring my bunny, store my bike AND make it to work in less than an hour and 15 as I have been doing for over a month now.

Oh.. about this job. So on the first day they mentioned a restructuring and two weeks ago tomorrow they announced that everyone except the "farm" team will be transferred to Boston. As I understand, they can pull us from Dover at will and move us to Boston. Right like that is a fun commute. SO I also have to add to my list of apartment needs an easy access to a highway, train or ability to break a lease. Blech. You would totally want to have me as a tenant huh?

I think this is the most disgustingly pessimistic piece of writing I have ever scribbled. I am ashamed. Haha goodnight. 6 am will come eeaarrllyy!

Left of College:
-Dance Showcase
-3 Papers
-1 Presentation
-1 Case study
-1 take home final
-2 exam finals


So close I can feel it!

So today, the cosmos proved they are screwing with me again. Today i found a penny and a dime about a foot away from each other. I have the evidence. Its official, someone is screwing with me.

Its almost May, isn't that crazy? I thought college would never end and now it is just around the corner. My count down goes:

International Management:
-Sit through one class and then two days of presentations
-Country Presentation
-Honors Paper
-Final Reflection
-Final Exam

International Financial Management:
-Three more classes
-ONE more case from hell
-Final Exam

Investments:
-Too many classes to peal my eye balls awake for..
-ONE homework assignment
-ONE paper
-Final Exam

Theater Dance:
-Jazz Testing
-Final Showings
-Senior day <~~ Thats me!
-Dance Showcase (May 12 - you should all come!)

I have THREE luncheons coming up (i love free lunch, and two i get PAID to be there).
AND a month off to look forward to. We have big plans on getting one of my friends evicted from housing on May 16 or 17, it should be a good time. I may have to master flip cup by then... :)

College is really ending. :( :) I think I am ready. I applied for a big fancy job today. I know I know. I already have a job lined up. But this one is really fancy. Like suits and huge bonus fancy. Oh well. We will see!

So. In my first finance class we discussed how it isn't even a positive NPV project to bend down and pick a penny up. I have actually put quite a bit of thought into this over the past year and a half. And I think someone knows it.

Lately, and by lately I mean over the past week or so, I have not been seeing pennies on the ground - but DIMES. And I don't mean like one or two, but I have found FIVE dimes on the ground in the past week. Who would have thought? I decided that it is a positive NPV project to pick those up since it is a 1000% return over the pennies. So. I have picked up 2 of the 5. Sometimes I am just boring.

Isn't that crazy?

Oh yeah.. and I am sick as hell and miserable. Yup. This is an excellent way to spend my last weeks as a college student. 2 weeks of class after this one. 1 week of showcase/reading days/ a final. another week until graduation where I have 1 final and will be working 10-5 (or 8 ! ) each day.

My count down to graduation to come..

Dear World,

If you keep pushing me I am going to be forced to push you back.

I had a rough morning. Not because I was tired but there was so much to be done. I decided on a medium coffee instead of a small... which kept me miraculously awake in Investments. But then i was bouncing off the walls jittery at work. Had a small heart attack dealing with HOBY in my schedule. These people just do not understand how busy you are until you try to set up an additional meeting. Haha then they were like "whooaa, how are you doing all that." And my response is I have no idea. I just need to make it to my exam on thursday and I will be home free.. quite literally. haha. The rest of the semester should be easier. Just keep telling myself that :)

PS: so apparently I became quite the impressive speller in college. You know you are smarter when spell check doesn't pick anything up anymore :)

It might sound crazy, but I think I am 100% ready to graduate. Its weird because in high school I think I dreaded graduation up until a month or so before. Then I was kind of like "yeah okay, I'm ready for a new adventure." Now I think maybe I have been ready for too long and I am ruining the college experience. I am ready to stop having homework, start getting a paycheck, meet new people, and live on my own in more than a room.

I had my first real Senioritis attack today in International Financial Management. We were going over a case and I was getting so freaking annoyed because it was a simple concept that idiots in the class didn't understand because they hadnt taken the pre-req. I found myself literally saying in my head "ugh, your not going to test me on it, even if you fail me I am still graduation, and I really don't care." Now I know how those non-college bound high school classmates felt when they could see the finish line of graduation and just gave up.

Money is another thing.. Liberty called me on Friday to say that they are giving me a raise :-D Before I have even started! Eric and I took a trip out to see the Liberty complex last Saturday and it looks exciting. I think it will be a nice (well paying) transition job and MBA position. They won't start paying for an MBA for a year after you work there, but in Sept of 09 or 10 I will be starting somewhere around Boston and possibly working at their Boston office. It is weird to think that right now I make less in a month than Eric does in a week - depressing huh. And that in my first month at Liberty I will make as much as I will from January to June.

I think I am just done with some people and the girly clicks. I didn't really have a click of girls I spent every minute with in high school, and maybe it is a little better. Last week I went to hear the guy that the movie Hitch is based on speak and he said that there are 5 requirements for true friends: 1. True friends are rare. 2. Time spent with them is effortless. 3. Nobody keeps score. 4. There is no jealousy. 5. There is no gossip. How many true friends do you really have? I think about the few that I have and wow - I really need to keep in touch with them better. And then I wonder, after college will any of my "click" now still be around?

My final complaint of college and growing up is: I am ready for an apartment. I don't think I made the wrong decision staying in a dorm this year, but at the same time I want to have more than one room and I also want my own bathroom. On top of that.. eric and i really are ready to take the relationship to the next level. I think we are ready to move in together. It will be nice having an "us" space instead of being at my dorm or his parents. I am excited to be able to have my projects and still be able to talk to him while he plays a game or something.

Next week is spring break. Hopefully between the weather changing and the break, my impatience will disappear. Don't get me wrong - I am enjoying the end of college. I am just ready for something different.

So really though.. I'm in a bit of a funk. This weather is getting to me, and I feel like I am missing out on some sleep even though I am not. Even coffee isn't curing this bad mood which has been lasting three days now.

For one thing, I didn't get my desired amount of cuddle time last weekend. Meaning I had NONE since I was away with the fam. Makes me miss him a whole lotta.

Then, I have gotten over last week's freak out about school work. I am almost done my list of things to do before spring break and that is still a week away. Hopefully, things will cool off soon. I have resolved not to stress about school and it seems to be working out well. A great end to four years of stress.

And, Last weekend I did some self reflection in the five hours of driving and the relaxing by the pool and walking on the beach. I'm trying to remove myself from the drama going on. Take a step back and say "do I really care what this person is saying about me/ to me about someone else/ is this really my problem" Yes it sounds a bit bitchy, but in reality I think it is healthy. You can't walk around with the weight of the world on your shoulders and still survive standing up right.

It is difficult because I do still want to be in contact with my school friends after graduation, but at the same time I feel that I am going to loose out on contact with everyone. The commute is going to make very long days until I move out, and then I will be perfectly happy just staying in with eric in the evenings. It will be weird not having people around constantly. We will be far enough away that it will be a hop skip and a jump for him to be in contact with his friends during the week instead of the hop it is now. Oh well, I am okay with that and he seems to be too. I figure the important people in the many stages of life keep contact one way or the other. And the rest, maybe we don't need them. Especially with this new movement to remove myself from drama.

So there you have it.. Dull huh. That is how I feel. Life is dull with the weather being dull. The weather is pissing me off actually. Yesterday I walked outside with a winter coat on and I was sweating. Today I walk outside with a spring coat on and I am freezing, and still freezing. Screw you mother nature.

Dear UNH,

Not only do I not appreciate that you curtail operations on a Friday afternoon for the same amount of snow that you wouldn't even consider closing for during the week - BUT, that also means that people who need doctors appointments have to wait until next week as well ? Wtf. Screw you and your closing abilities.
Thanks,
A very angry senior

On Wednesday afternoon I woke up from my nap before International management to find that I could hardly talk my throat hurt so much. I wasn't sure if it was from post nasal drip or not, so i just took some sudafed and went to class. Later that night I looked at my throat and could see with my own eyes an inflamed right tonsil with while lines on them.. yup.. puss.

First thing Thursday morning I called health services and was told I had to just go in and see the triage nurse. So thursday after lunch I went to see the triage nurse and got a culture done. Only my right tonsil is infected. They gave me an appointment for 24 hours later when the culture would be grown.

But then today, I was sitting at lunch and I got a phone call from Health Services saying that they are curtailing operations at 2, so they had to reschedule my 2:15 appointment. She said that I would have to come back next week. I asked what the hell I was supposed to do about my throat infection, was put on hold for about 10 minutes, and then was told that the culture was negative for strept so I should call them back if I don't feel better next week. I pretty much told her to screw off and give me an appointment for Saturday. So she did.. but I still called my primary care doctor from home.

They are getting back to me soon.. lets hope they send some drugs my way and tell me i can keep my tonsils. Or else I will be spending my spring break unable to talk..

So I am sick.. again.. Yes, if you are asking if I was just sick last week - you are correct. I was feeling better over the weekend, started going to the gym again at the beginning of this week, and bam again I am sick. My throat is infected, I have the chills, I am exhausted, but yet I am not completely miserable yet..

I am starting to wonder if my idea of knowing that I want or need something is that it becomes harder to live without it than to have it. I love my independence.. but every night I become painfully aware that yes, I am little bit lonely curling up in my bed without another body to keep it warm.

I also love my backpack.. and yet I had to sew together the second major hole it has had since I got it for high school graduation from my sister. What a pain. I have never had to sew my high school LL Bean bag back together and that one had way more stuff in it. So, Nike, screw you and your shitty sewing abilities. My spite for Nike also goes into their shoes too. So okay, I'll give them the fact that I bought 2 pairs of Nike sneakers before coming to college and they really only both started falling apart last year.. but still. I have one pair specifically for the gym, a nice pair of running shoes with great support. But their soles are wearing out. :( AND I wore the other ones every now and then the first two years of school, but only last year really did I wear them everyday. Well, last semester I learned that they were so worn that if i stepped near a puddle my socks would be wet. Screw you too Nike. . .

I am actually having lots of shoe problems lately.. my tan dressy shoes are falling apart, my tap shoes are falling apart.... thank you blog for making me realize maybe I need to purchase and dispose of shoes more often. All four of these shoes I purchased before coming to college. I suppose this summer with my real paycheck I should get a new wardrobe of shoes.

What I had actually intended to get onto.. well the computer screen.. is my annoyance with people lately. I am just sick of them. I am not sure if it is the stage in life we are all in, or the first real winter in years; but people are making me miserable. Sometimes they complain waaay too much.. sometimes they are just too over the top. Can't we ever just relax and not have to be completely animated? I do not have the energy for their individual petty problems, nor the will to listen to them. I do not care if I leave someone out, because I am so used to the feeling. I don't even have a desire to socialize with people after dinner anymore, sometimes the length of dinner is too much for me to handle.

Maybe graduating is coming at the perfect time. I do not have to see more than one person after I get out of work.. well at least after I move out of my parents house. But that is not too far. :) And I will still be able to make dates when I want to see them.. hmm.. revolving around my schedule.. that will be a change..

What an amazing Valentine's Day weekend! I have to admit that it had the potential of sliding into the "just a normal weekend" way, but it was saved by two people who love each other, and one man looking to score some extra bonus points for no reason at all. This was the first Valentine's Day that Eric and I have been able to spend the actual day together. Since I have Fridays off this semester, I was psyched when I found out that Valentine's Day was on a Thursday. A few weeks ago I remembered that eric had once planned on buying be a build a bear, and I went "Ah Ha! Lets go to build a bear for valentine's day!" That and a card was all i asked for.

Well Valentine's Day came around... eric picked me up from school and I could hear my car coming up the road with its GrrrraaaaahhhhhhhnnnGrrraaahhhhhh" .. it turns out i need a new muffler.. The very sexy man helped me bring my overpacked laundry and homework to the car, aaawwwed at his card *It was just too perfect of a card, if i do say so myself* and on the road we went. He then experienced his Valentines Day present - I shut up for an entire 10 minutes on the ride home. I think that is a new record considering we weren't even fighting. We had several errands to do.. and then were quite tired... so build a bear was pushed off until Saturday when the after work day blues wouldn't kick in. We had a very relaxing friday night, and Saturday was just as great!

I was a little concerned that my car would be putting me in the poor house - but eric took a look and the reason for all the noise is that there is a baseball size hole in my muffler and the rest of the muffler is pealing off from rust. Gotta love NH right? He decided that he could in fact fix it and we had an experience that goes down in my firsts list - bought a part for MY car. AND it only ran me $35 - dont worry, eric will be getting tipped for his installation.

So then off it was to the mall. We stopped in at Penney's because i was hoping they would have end of season sales on office boots. But, they were all out of boots that did not look like you should be sticking dollar bills in them as the girl walked past. I did however get 2 pairs of $50 high quality shoes for $9.28!! Yesss!

THEN off to build a bear - turns out build a bear was super crowded so we decided to walk around a little bit. We looked at shiny important rings, I got a little tongue tied trying to get away from a sales person.. and checked out the pet store and GameStop. My next DS game will be Princess Peach. Its been decided. lol

So then we went back to build a bear and it was calmer. I picked out the "Champ" Bear. It has patches on it and i said "baby its just like our relationship!" We were sold. I think got to put a heart in, make a wish, and now I have the perfect new bear!

The rest of the weekend continued to be amazing. Its always great when you look at someone first thing in the morning and see in the way they smile that they are just so in love with you.

Its even better when you can call them with a drama problem and they say "i'll take care of this, it won't be a problem anymore."

Men.. Bears.. and Shoes.. every girl needs them!

Half a week left of the semester and here's what i have left:
- Finishing the Thesis.
- Studying for Strategic Management.
- Studying for Financial Policy.
- One of each class left (Two of ballet).
- Two rehersals.
- One Dance Showcase.
- Strategic Management Final.
- Financial Policy Final.

Then I am home free : ) As of December 21... So keep me posted on the Durham happenings until then.

And then I will be home for break. Well, only sort of. December 26 to Dec 31 I'm off to Vegas. . . and there are a couple of weekend trips planned.. sooo.. in reality I will probably be home for one or two weekends and the week days!

All in all, I am very excited to be able to do absolutely nothing!

Ugh. this is a weird week.

one exam, 2 papers... then im done.. but not really.

so school tomorrow, cool new hopefully do nothing job for tuesday and wednesday... then home for a random night to do a meet and greet and get paid to do it on Thursday... then back for boring job friday followed by volunteering and move out bring and early saturday. BUT... i get to see Bush Sr and Clinton! :D

then its summer... weird.

1 homework assignment...
2 papers...
1 presentation...
1 thesis statement...
4 finals ...

and then i am done for the summer.
5 days of class then 2 weeks of finals. :) not too shabby.

its funny how simple things about a person and what they do can make you so happy. and once you have that everything else matters a little less.

.. although my nose is still making itself known with this bugger factory i am experiencing.

i want a snow day....


... after noon :)

In a few hours (about 10) i'll be on my way to New York! Whoot whoot :) I know you are uncontrollably excited for me! :)

i heart resnet and their computer fixing abilities... even at 9 at night! :-D

I officially hate the cold. I'm not sure if it was walking back from C lot and feeling like my legs were turning into icicles below me, or coming back and my room not even being super hot and warm but I hate the cold. Not to mention it ruins super fun weekend nights out cuz it makes the Gables so freaking far away. Thats okay though. sometimes I nice relaxing night in is exactly what you need. Funny too that earlier this week I was thinking "Saturday night: nice relaxing night in" and that didnt happen but Friday night did! For the record though: 0 degrees with a wind chill of -16 is NOT okay. I would rather have a snow storm than this cold... or a thunder storm even.

So sometimes you really just have to be reminded to take a breath and roll with the punches. Yup.

Congrats to my someone special!

Now if only I could survive this semester, I will be a happy camper.

i totally needed this vacation. not sure if im ready for it to end, and not really sure if it needs to continue. im starting to get antsy but i love waking up and not REALLY having to do anything... oooh and getting to see the man of my dreams EVERYday. that pretty much rocks too. i kind of miss seeing everyone else all the time tho. :'( and somehow home still reminds me of a world i left and dont really belong in when i leave 4 Autumn Run and 68 Auburn Rd. is that what college does to you? or is it called moving on? growing up? if i could bring him with me, i dont think i would ever look back. and it would never bother me. is that weird?